Illustrations point out just what’s wrong with me

 

I think
that relationships are like illustrations.
A work of art
that two people
or more
work on together.

Some illustrations are worked on
more by one person
than the other.
The style of the art
showcases one skill
and dwarfs the other.

Other times
the artists collide
like musicians in
an orchestra at the crescendo –
all their markings line up
they have the same tune
the same heart beat.

And it
falls to reason
that
an artists medium
(and it this case, everyone is an artist)
whether it be watercolors,
inks or chalks,
or crayons,
is his means of expressing himself.
The number of colors
in his box
represent exactly
the skills
of communication
he possesses.

That is to say
that crayons come in
different sizes.
The 64 size box
is wonderful.
There’s a crayon for listening,
and a color that means sensitivity,
one for
honesty,
and another for
tact,
one each of
hand gestures,
comforting,
encouragement,
empathy,
presence,
sharing,
perhaps there are several different shades of
teaching.
There’s a lot of different crayons
in that box.

I wish I had them all.
that would be great. Amazing even.

Perhaps
you could forgive me
when I confess
that
when I see other people
with more crayons than me
I get jealous.
It makes me kinda mad.

Life can be so unfair.

Sometimes I see people
who don’t abuse
other people.
And I think that’s wonderful.
The way it should be.
And I wonder
what color crayon
is the ‘not abuse’ crayon.
I want that one.
And I want to give it
to everyone around me.
But someone told me
that it’s
not one crayon.
It’s a combination
of like,
50
all on the page at once
to make this
beautiful art.

And there I go,
jealous again.
Of people with good boundaries
and who ask their children questions
People who say please may I
and people who can stand up for themselves.
Those relationships
make really good illustrations.
It just makes me smile
to see it.

One thing
that is important here
is knowing
that there is
always the potential
for a bigger rainbow.
Painters get to mix
their own colors.
Awesome right?
It is.
But sometimes I don’t.
Mostly it is
easier to use the colors I was given.
I mix one up
sometimes
one or two or three
and it’s good
to paint with those.

Sometimes it shocks
my fellow artists
when I have new colors.
They might even
take a little break
from our illustration
for a while.

Making new colors
is
different
than just adding
two parts kindness
and three parts listening.
It needs to be earned.
Somehow.
In some way.
New colors require work.

That’s the tough part.
working on new colors.

some people
have really crappy
colors to begin with.
Maybe four colors,
and that is all.
Only four!
One of them..
judgment,
and another,
teaching,
the last two could be
knowledge and being blunt.

Those would be some sad pictures.
All those relationship pictures would look
pretty similar
I bet.

Illustrations
of relationships
can be complex
or simple.
A common workplace illustration:
respect,
delegation,
humor.
a school illustration:
teaching,
learning,
questions,
mentoring.

My relationships
sometimes get in a rut
of using one color
way too much.
Other times I just sit
not knowing
which colors
would be right next.

And frequently
I pause
knowing
the color I need
is not yet
in my box.
Our illustrations
point out
that
I am missing some colors.
Is that what
is wrong with me?

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